All these dreams started when i was about 5-6 year old...since small, i used to goto balavikas but not that consistent though! But the connection stated then...everynow and then Baba would come in my dream but He would not talk!....Look and go...smile and go...stare and go...but i knew it was Sathya Sai Baba....i was quite a naughty teenager who talk back whenever there was a wrong judgement (from my view)...i was a notorious child...and often got my self into terrible confrontations....Despite all things something separated me from my family...i never felt the 'familyness' and this lead me to Swami...i started reading Swami's books...buying his books...reading Shiva Pranams, Ramayana, Mahabaratha, Yogananda, The Lemurian Scrolls and many more...i was hungry for more...and this was guiding my inner beig to change...to calm my boiling hormones....i was using whatever i learnt to control my thoughts and anger...sometimes i let them just go freely....i tried meditation...at one point when i gave up...Swami came in my dream and gave me a stare...ha ha..to say the He was not pleased with me...but i continued with all my small- small sadhana....i never had the chance to attend much camps out there..so i was confined to limited to books....so when i had not much of books to entertain me...i would imagine doing abhishegam to Gods in person by singing bhajans aloud while mentally performing the poojas. I made it a point to conduct this mansika pooja every week....Everynight when i get into ectasy in singing Swami's songs...Swami would come in the dreams...smiling....Err...although i enjoyed all these...not all in my family believed in me...caused they thought i was imagining this or could be that after reading to much of material it got projected in my dreams (well could be- who knows).....Swami started talking in my dreams...when i entered varsity after joining the Sai society there....that is when He started communicating, giving padamnamaskars...advising etc.
I never liked my childhood and my days at my varsity that much...but i do love the spiritual metarmorphosis that took place from my childhood till today...it's magnificient....everything had a reason...Swami made me far from my family member so that i would be close to Him - to build 'that' foundation in me....i guess it did....but there is a long way to go...and i don't know when it will stop......now...i am using all my experience to nuture my child....expecting my child to be useful towards the society under the name of Sai....this journey is a continuous journey....a never ending story.